I have to say this year really has been a termendously amazing year!! I have been at deaths door and came to peace with who I am! I know, I know, it sounds qleche! Well even if it is, I have faced things this year differently than I have in the past. I have had so much bad news that I thought I became numb to it. I have been diagnosed with RA (not there) diabetes (not there) and finally lupus (which the Drs can't get into remission). I have strugled to make rent on several occasions while out of work sick. I have been told I will not have a relationship because I won't "settle", and someone broke my window to steal my out dated gps. All of these things would have boken me down in years past, but some how I have learned to take it all with a grain of salt. I have found if I look for trouble or not it will still be there. But if I don't go on search of peace it will not come! The joy that I have heard so many of my elders talk about was and is truly lying in wait. All I had to do was look. It was there all the time. The only thing we can control is our thought process. I can choose to be happy! I can choose to let everyone around me get all worked up about petty things while I find the joy of simply living in each and every moment no matter what it brings!!!
We were made to feel. I am a huge texture fend I always have been. I have decieded to carry that over into my thought process as well. I want to "feel" the moments I live in. I want to smile with my whole being. I have had several intense moments of late. (You know the ones where your face gets flush, you feel tingles, and you just know that ya' know). I want to touch someones life in a way that they will never forget the moment we met. I want my character to be one of intense light. Where when you see me you see Him. He is the center of my being and I want to share His peace, His love, His character. So, in the words of our brother Paul, "the peace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you all, amen."
Thursday, August 19, 2010
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WOW!!! I couldn't have put it any better! Isn't it a wonderful place to be in life? Although I haven't been through all the struggles you have been through (especially recently aye aye aye!) I have also come to a similar disposition about life! It's too exciting and beautiful to have a negative perspective about it! And the great the greatest lesson I have learned as of late is that our happiness in our lives is based entirely on perspective!
I've been watching a lot of cooking shows lately and one of the chef's said something and I thought it was oddly profound. He said, "If you think it's going to taste bad, it most likely will." I'm pretty sure he was talking solely about food, BUT I took the lesson as, if we go into a situation thinking it's going to be terrible, knowing that it's terrible, complaining that it's terrible --- it will be terrible!
Anyway, sorry to rant! I just want you to know that I am so proud of you and so so so so blessed to have such an amazing woman in my life! You have taught me so many lessons and you continue to inspire me daily! You are beautiful, strong woman and I couldn't be more proud of you!
I found this quote I think you might like (I'm all about quotes lately ;) )
"Life is meaningless only if we allow it to be. Each of us has the power to give life meaning, to make our time and our bodies and our words into instruments of love and hope." - Tom Head
I LOVE YOU!
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