Finding peace in every moment!!

I have to say this year really has been a termendously amazing year!! I have been at deaths door and came to peace with who I am! I know, I know, it sounds qleche! Well even if it is, I have faced things this year differently than I have in the past. I have had so much bad news that I thought I became numb to it. I have been diagnosed with RA (not there) diabetes (not there) and finally lupus (which the Drs can't get into remission). I have strugled to make rent on several occasions while out of work sick. I have been told I will not have a relationship because I won't "settle", and someone broke my window to steal my out dated gps. All of these things would have boken me down in years past, but some how I have learned to take it all with a grain of salt. I have found if I look for trouble or not it will still be there. But if I don't go on search of peace it will not come! The joy that I have heard so many of my elders talk about was and is truly lying in wait. All I had to do was look. It was there all the time. The only thing we can control is our thought process. I can choose to be happy! I can choose to let everyone around me get all worked up about petty things while I find the joy of simply living in each and every moment no matter what it brings!!!
We were made to feel. I am a huge texture fend I always have been. I have decieded to carry that over into my thought process as well. I want to "feel" the moments I live in. I want to smile with my whole being. I have had several intense moments of late. (You know the ones where your face gets flush, you feel tingles, and you just know that ya' know). I want to touch someones life in a way that they will never forget the moment we met. I want my character to be one of intense light. Where when you see me you see Him. He is the center of my being and I want to share His peace, His love, His character. So, in the words of our brother Paul, "the peace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you all, amen."