Finding peace in every moment!!

I have to say this year really has been a termendously amazing year!! I have been at deaths door and came to peace with who I am! I know, I know, it sounds qleche! Well even if it is, I have faced things this year differently than I have in the past. I have had so much bad news that I thought I became numb to it. I have been diagnosed with RA (not there) diabetes (not there) and finally lupus (which the Drs can't get into remission). I have strugled to make rent on several occasions while out of work sick. I have been told I will not have a relationship because I won't "settle", and someone broke my window to steal my out dated gps. All of these things would have boken me down in years past, but some how I have learned to take it all with a grain of salt. I have found if I look for trouble or not it will still be there. But if I don't go on search of peace it will not come! The joy that I have heard so many of my elders talk about was and is truly lying in wait. All I had to do was look. It was there all the time. The only thing we can control is our thought process. I can choose to be happy! I can choose to let everyone around me get all worked up about petty things while I find the joy of simply living in each and every moment no matter what it brings!!!
We were made to feel. I am a huge texture fend I always have been. I have decieded to carry that over into my thought process as well. I want to "feel" the moments I live in. I want to smile with my whole being. I have had several intense moments of late. (You know the ones where your face gets flush, you feel tingles, and you just know that ya' know). I want to touch someones life in a way that they will never forget the moment we met. I want my character to be one of intense light. Where when you see me you see Him. He is the center of my being and I want to share His peace, His love, His character. So, in the words of our brother Paul, "the peace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you all, amen."

Birthdays, Anniversary, and family time!!!

For everyone who doesn't know my brother Rickey had a pretty bad run in with a pane glass window so our 4th of July was postponed. He is fine he had to have 2 pints of blood and 17 stitches!! Thank God he is ok!!!! I love you Rickey!!! Thank you for being ok!!

On a lighter note, I got to see my cousins Whitney and Selena and their family's over the past week. I love all of the lil' guys they are all growing up really fast! My cousins are so beautiful and I am very proud of them. It is so fun catching up. We need to stay in contact more often. I missed too much of my lil' cousins lives! I love you guys!!!!

I feel like a mean daughter it was my parents' anniversary and I missed it, I feel bad, especially after my four day birthday extravaganza. They mean so much to me, and I completely forgot. Wow! I need a cool idea on how to make it up to them.

I hope they will forgive me!!!

Yesterday and today I got to hang out with Angie's kiddos! We went to the humane society, where a crazy cat attacked my leg. Then to the pet store where we watched a man buy a rat, this only furthered my lack of love for our furry friends! Then we went day dreaming down the streets of all of the rich peoples' houses, and finally, off to play at the park. When we had finished with all of that the first question was, "Now what are we gonna do?" lol!!!!! Kiddos you gotta love 'em!

I am glad my sister let's me barrow them. I just love them some much!!

Dr. says I can return to work again on August, the team says I will be in , Houston Ms, and then in Houston Tx. I'll be back in Oklahoma sometime in November!!! I am looking forward to seeing what will come of all of it. Wow my life is a new adventure everyday!!

My relaxation time,I have I haply adopted from my Mom and Aunt Karen, HOT TEA, with a straw! Thank God for the little things that mean soo much!!! I love my family!!

Life is good!!

Hey everybody, I am back!! Camp was wondermous! I got a tan too! I met a lot of new friends, heard some good preaching and realized how old I am!!! All the kiddos I used to teach in Sunday school are taller than me now!! They have a huge amount of new things going on at the old camp grounds, Wii's, nintendo 64, ping pong, air hockey, human fuse ball, and the list goes on.... I played in the water fight both weeks and because I was staff, got drowned!! It was a blast though. So in the words of Michael Ray... Boom-shocka-locka!!

I will not be able to go back to work until August. I can't wait to be all better. I only hope that while I'm off I can spend my time being a blessing and not a burden. I feel old because my body will not keep up with what I want to do. I get tired so easy. I spent the weekend between camps at my aunt Karen's and the weekend after in Guthrie with Pecka and Grandma, I slept most of the time I was at their houses. How fun is that? I am glad my family understands, but I don't. LOL!! I just need a little bit more energy.

Well the 4th is just around the corner and then 4 days later I will be 32. A lot of people are supposed to be at my parents' to watch Rickey shoot off his millions of fireworks. I can't wait to hang out with them all. I wish my sissy girl could be here too. Oh well, she'll be home soon enough. Korea can't have her. We need her here. So for my birthday I would love to meet my husband!! LOL!!!! How awesome would that be?? Any way it is such a blessing to share my life with you, I will write again soon. Thank you for all your prayers!!!!!

Why I called it the Greener Side!

My first long term hospital stay was last October. I have been in and out of the hospital several times since then. I would like to share my new life with some loyal readers. I got to spend my first Christmas alone ever in a hospital during a blizzard. I was in the hospital for a lupus rash that would not heal ( it was on the left side of my upper thigh-lower bottom). So I just tell everyone I was "left behind in 09". Lol! I love that I didn't know how near death I was until the worst was over. Thanks to my HERO, my Mommy!

Then, I had to scare my Aunt Karen half to death when I had a stroke at her house in January. I spent even more time in the hospital. So I have to tell you to be so close to death without knowing it and not remembering some of it, I have become more aware of how precious life is...and I want to share my lil' moments of life on The Greener Side, with you!!

This morning I woke up at 6:30 seeing life at it's best. I got to go camping with my baby sister and her lot. I was in the back of my truck (suv) where I slept and woke to the site of the sun just rising and shimmering off of the water. It was so peaceful and beautiful it was like I was in a trance. I couldn't wait for all of the kids to wake up and break it. Soon they did and they did it with a bang. They were feeding the entire southern hemisphere of geese it looked like. The boys were chasing the geese and the girls were squealing every time one got close. That is a memory I will cherish for a long time to come.

I hope I can entertain you with my thoughts and memories. I am off to church camp starting Monday, so stay tuned.........